Not sure how to start this off, but I'll just come out and say it as best as I can..
I haven't been as active as I would have liked on Deviantart and on Tumblr, I keep wanting to upload more art, but I can never seem to finish anything anymore... I start on something new and get halfway sometimes but then I just stop and never seem to find that passion to finish. This is all result from having depression for so long and having depression kill off alot of joy I used to have in doing things in life, not just art, I feel like I can barely get by anymore and I just have no interest in anything anymore v~v
I have been drawing here and there, and sometimes I do upload to Facebook or Tumblr but I'm just not active on DA like I used to be and I'm just not happy with how things are progressing so far with it... So, I was thinking, how would you guys feel if I put my stuff in storage? or put them into folders so that my main gallery page is empty and I can start a new? but, I was thinking of maybe making a new DA page, for art that is finished and for art that has a consistent style. I have been working hard on trying to narrow down my inconsistency with art so that my style(s) aren't all over the place
Not many of my watchers are active at all or anymore, but thats also probably because I am not active myself, and I never have new art for anyone to look forward too.. all this is just hurting my image as an artist.. I'm so sorry for never being active or posting art, it's still just a struggle for me to sleep at night (if insomnia isn't killing me, which it has been for a long while now and has gotten worse), it's still a struggle to wake up and most of the time a struggle to just draw and try and finish anything under just a few days top.
I'm really grateful to all the watchers who have stayed around, even at times when I needed to vent about my unhappiness in life, but I feel like I am just letting my DA go to waste and my passion for art, it can't be helped and I am trying to be more active in just drawing alone, but I feel like I am coming close to giving up and ... I know that's not something I want to happen.. just wish I could start over from the ground up and make things work out for the best, and I know it takes time to recover and to get/find joy again for things that used to bring me happiness, I just wish I could post more on DA and be active weekly or something that wont have my DA feeling like it's a dead place ><
For now, I am just in the process of getting a new job, so that at the moment is a top priority, but what do you guys think about me making a new DA to start fresh? I won't be deleting this DA and I might still post here (just not sure with what, since I've never had a subject matter that suits me). Do you guys want to see anything in particular or anything you guys think I could try with subject matter? ^^ I still want to try my hands at character design and I am having a bigger interest in fashion illustrations, so that I know I want to do also.
>< Does anyone have any suggestions on how to naturally treat insomnia? I've always had it, since... 2008 and beyond and it has gotten worse over the last couple of weeks and month. I usually sleep at 12 or 1am, always wake up around 4am and then sleep back at 6 or 7am and finally wake up at 12pm T T;; I've read some causes for insomnia and I know that stress, anxiety, depression, irregular sleep pattern and my environment are my top causes for my insomnia. A friend of mine suggest melatonin, but I read that melatonin doesn't really treat insomnia beyond a mild case and I think my case is beyond mild... hrrm. I should see a doctor? I've never had a doctor before, at least not one in my teens and adulthood (I've only had general doctors when I was a child and a gyno a few few times as an adult)... so, I am not really sure what type of doctor or specialist I should see :<